Last One Standing

January 11, 2015 at 1:25 AM | Posted in Musings | Leave a comment
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Just after the New Year, I attended an old friend’s wedding when I was in Bicol for the holidays. She’s one of my friends in college and our barkada were all invited to the wedding. The five of us were pretty close back when we were in college. And almost all of us were present at each other’s wedding. Now that my friend was the fourth one in the group to get married, I am the only one still unattached. Yup, I’m the last one standing.

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So of course being the only remaining single in the group, I got a lot of teasings and proddings from them. They kept insisting that I should get married soon. They practically gave me a deadline. They said that I should get married by June this year. One of them is giving birth early this year so they said it would be perfect if I can get married after her baby comes.

I love my friends, but it can be exasperating sometimes when they and other people pressure me to get married. They have a traditional view on marriage and family. But I am not traditional. I am unconventional. I’m not like most women. Being a product of a broken family, I don’t view marriage in rose-colored glasses. If divorce is legal in the Philippines, my parents would have been divorced a long time ago. So yes, I’m not in a hurry to get married.

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Actually I have mixed feelings about marriage. On one hand, I’m not sure if I’m the marrying kind. I can’t even imagine myself in a wedding dress, much less walk down the aisle. But on the other hand, it would be nice to have a long-term companion.

I’ve always been liberated for most of my life and I value my independence greatly. Now unless there’s a guy out there who can sweep me off my feet and completely change my mind, I still remain happily unattached.

2014: The Year That Was

January 2, 2015 at 4:26 PM | Posted in Musings | Leave a comment

As I move forward this 2015 with hope and determination, I’d like to take a few moments to look back and review the past year. Last year definitely had its ups and downs for me. But there were also a few notable experiences that made 2014 a memorable one for me. Here are just a few highlights from 2014:

  1. I decided to step out of my comfort zone. I made a major life-changing decision that was both risky and challenging and involved a lot of patience. Right now I’m still pushing through with this decision in the hopes that it will help me grow as a person.
  2. I embarked on a project that would further test my capabilities as an independent person. This project has been in the pipeline since 2013 and it was only late last year that I finally took the plunge.
  3. I reconnected with family I hadn’t seen in a long time. My uncle who’s an OFW came home from abroad last year and I was able to spend some time with him and the rest of my family during his short stay in Manila.
  4. I had the opportunity to travel someplace I’ve never been. I went to Cagayan de Oro and stayed there for over a week. Aside from spending unforgettable days there, my stay in CDO also helped me see the region in a new light.
  5. I had a brush with a Hollywood celebrity. Considering that a lot of Hollywood celebrities already visited the Philippines, I’ve never been the one who would go out of the way to see or meet them, much less stalk them. But that changed when the star of one of my favorite shows on TV visited the country. I’m a big fan of Suits and Gabriel Macht so of course I went kinda crazy when he came here to do charity work. I actually saw him in person during his stay and I will never forget the big smile on his face when me, my sister and a couple of friends were practically screaming and hyperventilating at the sight of him.

There were a few more incidents that happened in 2014 that I consider to be turning points in my life but I won’t elaborate on them as they’re very private and not for public consumption. Let’s just say that they were life lessons for me that I need to reflect on.

A Wedding and a Homecoming

December 22, 2014 at 10:00 AM | Posted in Musings, Travel | Leave a comment

Only a few more days left before Christmas and New Year and I’m excited already. Although I’ll be spending Christmas here in Manila, I will be coming home to Bicol for the New Year. It’s been years since I spent the New Year there. So much has changed in my hometown that I can’t wait to experience the New Year celebrations there again. Growing up in the province, I remember when my family and I used to spend the holidays together cooking and preparing for Noche Buena and New Year’s Eve. On New Year’s Eve, my family together with my cousins, aunts and uncles and I would gather at the balcony of our house and watch the fireworks. Now after years of spending the holidays in the big city, I’m really looking forward to ringing in the new year with my family in Bicol.

I’m also looking forward to seeing my friends from college again. One of them is actually getting married after the New Year and I’m excited to be at the wedding. I missed the weddings of my other three college buddies before because of conflicts in schedule and I’m just so glad that I will finally be able to make it this time around. My girl friends and I are considering this to be a reunion of sorts since it will be the first time that our group will be complete. You see, every time one of us in the group gets married, either one or two of us couldn’t attend. But now, my friend (the bride-to-be) couldn’t be happier that all of us will be at her wedding. I could only hope that all of them will also be present when I get married.

Unwritten

November 19, 2014 at 11:48 PM | Posted in Musings, Writing | Leave a comment
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Sharon Olds poem

I recently came across this poem by Pulitzer Prize-winning poet Sharon Olds and it struck me as both poignant and relevant. This particular line of the poem spoke to me like it was talking about my life. As an introvert, I am never the type to put my heart on my sleeve. Whatever my opinions are, whatever I feel I usually put it in writing – either on this blog, in my private diary, or on social media. I can be a really keen observer, especially when it comes to people and situations. I might not be very vocal about it, but I form opinions in my head. I am like Charlie in The Perks of Being a Wallflower. I write what I observe. Perhaps some of that you can read on my blog or on Twitter but some are kept in private, away from prying eyes.

The poem also reminded me of my previous attempt to write my own autobiography. Given my past and present experiences, I have a lot of stories to tell. Some of them I’ve already divulged to my close friends but others are still waiting to be written. Maybe someday I will eventually write about them or maybe not. There are things in life that are better left forgotten, unspoken or unwritten.

Blurred Lines

July 31, 2014 at 11:30 PM | Posted in Musings | Leave a comment

If there is one thing I dislike, it’s people who want me to do things I don’t agree with or believe in. Being an Aquarian, this is something I’m passionate about. I find it really suffocating when people try to control me. I especially hate it when some people go overboard and step into my personal life uninvited. They don’t seem to realize that certain things have boundaries.

Telling me to do personal stuff that I don’t even believe in or dislike doing is stepping on boundaries. That’s already asking me for favors and I’m not obliged to follow it.

What I usually do when this happens is that I exactly do the opposite. Screw the consequences. That’s how stubborn I can be, especially when I’m being forced. Sorry, not sorry.

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